plant

i dont know about her.
its just...i get so fucking jealous whenever he talks about her
like im just that other girlfriend
another girlfriend
to kiss to hold to say i love u i miss u to
its like he puts her on a pedestal
taking just now as an example
he was like when he said short skirts i immediately turned to plant
coz when she goes out she wears really short skirts.
i know she looks like whatever in her uniform but she dresses really well
and well, im not the best dresser around town i admit
only coz im muslim and my parents are too conservative and im too fat
there.


god, i feel like crying...
im fact, i am!
sheesh.
its so stupid.
got me a lil upset.
sigh.
i so hate myself.
and im so spiteful.
coz after he made that comment
and he said call me later...i was gonna say no.
because i didnt wanna get upset again.
sigh. im hurting myself too much over nothing.