why?

I dont understand it. I mean haish...


She just put me in the doldrums. Sure, at first it will be the honeymoon period.
But I really wanna try it this time.
I really wanna make it work.
I wanna be in an at least half-decent relationship.
I wanna be there with him thru the ups and downs.
And I just wanna feel something.


I cannot believe how selfish she was.
I've been in and out of flings.


Even Saha/Goldy/Weirdo said I look like a fling kinda girl.


I wanna change that. I want this to be different.
I wanna feel like I've got someone by my side.
I know it might not be the real thing, but I WANT this to work.


I don't want this to be another wasted love.
To find that I let go of another great guy who I just couldn't bring myself to really really like a lot.
I told her that just because her relationship with that guy turned out that way it doesn't mean that mine wuold turn out that way too.


She insisted tt its true.


And i blurted out to her why she couldn't be happy for me.
She said she was.
My foot la.
I kinda regret telling her.
And all this coz she patched up with that guy again.
Coz she felt lonely.


Well babes, not MY fault u cant stand on your own two feet after a year of being coupled.
I could for two years and my heart yearned and yearned for one guy after another that I couldn't get and look how independent I am.
You got lonely only after what? A month or two of not what? Sms-ing someone? Talking goo-goo to someone on the phone?
Fuck it. And fuck you ok?
It wasn't fair of u to poke a hole in my balloon before I even blew it.