tell him

its nice to get him back on my MSN
gosh this is so lame lar...
MSN MSN MSN not even face to face


ok ok...so anyways,
nice to talk when i do get enuff courage n all that
but everytime i see him online i just get those strange tots all over again
and i dont really like it
coz i feel like if im nothing to him then id rather just see him when i see him that kinda thing
its either im something to him or just nothing
id rather be nothing to him
and i want permission to block him again
haha...
so lame la aku nie


i just cannot stay still
its like starting this shit all over again
right back to square one
and i dont wanna be there again
it sucks
he was my last
and i dont have anyone else after him
its so messed up
and we werent even...
sigh


i dont wanna be hung up on him
everytime i see a sappy movie its him
he keep popping into mind
its irritating and soooo sad at the same time
sad to think of all the things
like what chance have i got?
i feel so like i wanna puke at myself
so disgusted with myself