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i dont like people saying that their status is "complicated". so bogus. esp on friendster. it used to be something kinda cool i guess, then it started getting sickening. if you're single say you're single. if you're not den say it. don't say that it's complicated la wadever la waaaad shit. if you are genuinely happy with the one you're with don't try to act all complicated. i think at the age of 17 there should not be much on your mind except studies and your future. yeah, im not exactly the most perfect example, but yeah. i think at 17 you don't know the meaning of complicated. so dont try to act so complicated. i can see thru your dimwit lies. your attempt to be "deep". bull.


i think she's back with him? i dunno, i don't care? i just kinda like the idea of someone liking me and being unable to get me. just to be a pain. yeah. i dunno la. maybe i like him too? sheesh. he's totally not my type. gggaaahhhhh! fuck this. whatever. i think they "deserve" each other lar.


my mom likes to blow things waaaay out of proportion. just this morning she got pissed of by sean just because he wasnt eating his meal properly. like hello, the thing COULD be hot or something. sometimes there is a reason for him to not want it right. i let kiki out of his cage lar. i tot he wont come out but he did. and she made sucha big hooha... its just an animal... it doesnt know anything... the worst creatures on the face of this Earth is Man himself. Man at times take animals for granted just because they dont voice out their fears or pain. And this makes him feel much greater than other living beings. But Man tend to forget that animals no matter how small are much more capable and stronger than an average Man. Taking an ant for example, it can carry many times its own weight. Can YOU do that? What about a snake? Some venom can kill an elephant in a short time. Can you boast of doing that? You cant right?
So yeah, remember. God made all things equal. God is great and all knowing. Allahuakbar.


Yesterday was a very fun day. So was today I guess.
Went to Kak Jajah's house to eat Sambal Udang... Yum!
Jalan2 at Punggol
Talked crap in my Dad's car where I got teased AGAIN about my weight. Like seriously, I'm not in the best shape BUT, I'm not fat either. Like what is wrong with these people and their screwed Twiggy perception of THIN? GOD, I really HATE Twiggy. Why the fuck couldnt she be meaty like Liv Tyler? Or Drew Barrymore? I thought of not talking to my cousins but they ARE my cousins lar. And that little bitch constantly yakking her head off about how much she eats and how she can never get any fatter to anybody who listens. Get this, she stepped on the weighing scale to see how "fat/thin" she is and it read what? 53kg? And she was all like "Bedek seh"...

*ROAR*
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!
you think gravity gives you a break coz of your oh so pretty face?
not on my ass!
ARGH!
god! that infuriated me!

so another one was going all beyonce's curvy...she's apple shaped...and i corrected her saying she's pear. and she said oh yeah, you're apple...thank god not all is lost coz the oh im so thing girl said what does apple got to do with you? so i was like ok...den i said im banana...and that pear/apple woman LAUGHED HER HEAD OFF...saying miss oh im so thin and perfect is a banana...so miss now labelled banana said im cinnamon stick lar...*points at me* she's banana... hello miss pear/apple with 2 kids and still not minding your words, a banana is not exactly THIN material. i choose it coz its meaty. like DUH! so fucking dumb... and to think you were pretty "smart" at your time. sheesh! pakai tudung pon tak tahu nak bersopan sikit. tak tahu nak alas sikit mulut kotor tu. so what if you're older... doesnt mean ko tak berdosa tak menyinggun perasaan aku. aku pon ader hati. so im thinking that come the month of Dec i would become an anorexic. see how they like THAT. show them that I CAN be thin and if they ask why im so filthy thin I would say they drove me to it. HELLO 17 years old a rampage of hormones and mixed emotions ok. do i need to WEAR a warning that says pls mind your language? will erupt at any moment? 17 years old... even saying that you look so cute nowadays can make one think on is fat.

oh yeah, she called me one of those kelat2 pisang... used for making pisang goreng.
this means if i don't get married its coz im too hard to swallow.
pple already think aku tak laku. combined with my thoughts...


wallow me in my self depression.
i think being miserable is desirable.
and having no emotions is what i should aim for.


Today I got to see Cats.


fuck off.