Restria

I miss going to town. I miss taking the MRT to Plaza Singapura. Den walking to Cineleisure den walking to The Heeren den to Far East. Yeah. I miss town siah...


Lai...Jie jie sayang...


Ouh, yeah. I forgot to tell him that I only appreciated what we had only when we lost it. Ah well, too late now. I don't think I should think about it too much lorh. It will just frustrate me & him.


Haiyah...Easy to say, I lazy oready to dwell. Dwell oso I'm at the loss mah. For what rite? Den I'm the one not getting on with life. You win some, you lose some. In this case I lost a long lost friend. Which I am losing over again. So ironic liddat. Dunno lar. Reconcile den got wedge. Might as well not meet right? But everything happens for a reason and I've learnt the lesson. I guess.


So what if I lost him? And so what if the next conversation that we have will only end up with one of us walking away like that time at I dunno where. I've done my fair share of walking away. Not a good idea but I hate confrontations.


Okay. Now, he's out of my life. I've made other friends. And I've reconciled with a few more. Losing a friend with whom you shared a history with is hard. But what's harder is to look forward despite all the regrets and ignore that feeling in the pit of your stomach to look back. We must be patient for that rainbow to show after the thunderstorm. So if we meet, we'll meet. But not online, not thru the phone not thru any other means except for real. Face to face. I will not tolerate myself to think back to the past. As it is just that. The Past.


And anyways, I got to know that one doesn't really practise what one preaches. So just shuttup larh yeah? You're making yourself seem like a hypocrite. What an irritant.


I will now break all ties and cut all loose ends.