i know

pple say that when u love something alot you shld let it go
-scoff- easier said than done...
however, what can you do when their time is up?
i love u very much...
hope u know that...


back to business...
watched two sappy love stories today...
one of them was barbie -yes, laugh-
and another one of them was miss match
which btw, is a heck nice show
which channel5 keeps on posponing the next episode


ok this is how love works on the telly...
girl meets boy
boy courts girl
they fall in love
they realise they love each other
they kiss
fireworks explode, children's laughter fills the air and doves fly overhead
-finger down throat-
puhleeeese~
so totally not like that
there are no fireworks, waterworks, laughter, flying birds etc etc


ok there's no more that i wanna add coz i ain't got nothing to say
i just wanna emphasize the fact that love on the big screens is totally bogus
however, i don't know how love is in real life...
sure these pple u see in soaps face many difficult nevertheless unreal problems
but how can u take them seriously when you know things are gonna work out half an hour later
worse case senario, they only find a solution in the next episode
so wadeverr
all i know is that life isn't so sugary sweet peppered with half hour problems


ok...this has been bothering me for ages
pls pls pls let this tide overrr
i told this one frend erm something larh eh
den i remembered telling her
"I don't want too many people to know. I wanna keep this a personal thing."
and she told this other friend
i thought of calling her when i got on the bus on the way home
then i think she didnt pick up? or something
cant remember
so anyways i asked her the next day and she said yes, she told so&so...
i was speechless...
i mean i trusted her
and i remembered telling her that i wanted to keep it personal
but...
i can just imagine her telling that so&so
"Eh, this and this happened u noe... blahblahblah..."
her reason being that so&so knew him too
ouh man...i just feel so betrayed...
feel like i cant trust her with my secrets
no matter how mature i know she is
ok this happened like what two weeks ago?
and its still at the back of my head
urghh
i wanna ask her if she recalled me saying not to tell anyone
but its just too long ago...
but its...
IRRITATING THE HECK OUT OF ME!!
AARRGGHH!!
i got to know the truth
and confront her
ask her why despite my telling her not to tell
she felt the need to tell
spread the news
stress out abt my situation
so so so so TOTALLY gotta wanna shoulda confront her
my fault oso larh
never go n call her
and tell? remind? her not to tell...
but things like this should be kept a secret
until i feel ready to tell so&so
so why did i tell her huh?
coz she was bugging me.
and i know how persistent she is...
later she merajok
i noe lar...
later she stress out herself
and i don't know why i didnt wanna tell so&so
just didnt feel like it
i mean after all my excitement
and my cute stories
telling so&so that it happened so abruptly is so....
anti-climax?
so...make-me-feel-stupid-ish...
argh!!


ok bottomline, love is not all hearts and sweet nothings
and i should not tell/confide in *her