tired

i just dunno what to do with myself...


i've been bitchy bitchy bitchy~
maybe due to all the things i've been in on?
it's sucha loada shit lar really
it's flattering but so heart pain-ish...


i don't think there's anything wrong with the school
i kinda like it
eventho its old and all that
it's got spunk?
haha


i've really got to stop wallowing in guilt?
in depression?
i dunno


i've got to get off my big fat lardo butt
get out of lust
and be proactive


yet~
how come i can be so in touch wid certain people
and yet it just goes round and round
instead of getting somewhere?


it's either im pathetic
or people see me as a just a friend
*rolls eyes*
like i dun have a heart
or maybeee.......


F* me
lets stop wid the maybes