fucker

fucker...
the person who APARENTLY contributed half of my chromosomes is such a peabrain
a dickhead
i mean what the fuck
the fuck fuck fuck
siak argh
im freaking sixteen
when when when when WHEN
am i going to live my life
get a life
to not be a girl who cannot protect herself
not fucking home for half the fucking day
sitting on his butt TYPING
u're fucking admin lorh
got so tiring meh?
u know why anot?
coz u're a gigolow
thats why...
argh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just becoz
fucking just fucking BECOZ~
becoz it happened to me...
u wanna know what happened eh?
brain, shld i tell it...
argh...heck...
i wont...
later pple gimme sympathetic looks...
yuckkity yuck~
so anyway...
pple need to get over those things rite?
why argh?
this cannot that cannot
stewpid siak
i can make my own decisions siak
if i was such a rebellious freako...
i would be one heck of a minah
mini skirts everyday...
smoking
trying drugs or wadnot...
u think i dont wanna wear or look like a bitch eh?
i do lorhh
just that, i take into consideration wad u taught me
like stupid rite?
for wad sia i think of u
never let me think
lyke fuck siak
im sixteen
SIXTEEN~!
six fucking teen
16
argh~!
isnt that big enarf?
that stupid ass that sleeps in the room across from me whom i call my brother
goes out
EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY
now u restrict me coz
i went out just now
at 10.30am
til abt 7pm...
n i fought wid u
this week
i went out on a freaking tuesday...
wad?
sacred day argh?
nk spend time eh?
is that it?
*spits*
puuuuuuuuuuuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii arh~
bro go out till early morn, bring frends come n slp here...
u think got fair meh?
sepak kang...
buto...pukimak..narbei
cheebye...knn...
sheesh...
so what if im a girl
SO WHAT LARHHH~!
n so wad if hes a boy?
CUT OFF HIS DICK...
den u know sia~
come home late late got like sundal meh?
siak...
tak faham siak...
nk nangis siak..
tapi buat per sey...
tak boleh sey dgn diorng...
aku asyik short fuse jer ah...
mcm maner akidah lei syg giler ngan her parents argh?
maybe, my parents stupid argh...
hakz...
yeahh...tts it...
STUPID
empty head...
siak...
smlm hot...niari hot...
how argh kidok?
how cum u can still love them?
like so much?
tahu lah...
we must all love them...
budden eh...
tak lei argh
i think urs really understanding ar...
lucky duck ah u
be thankful kiesh??
me?
i cant even bring myself to pray for them...
i know...
thats really mean...
but its true...
stop it res...
too much info~
ah well...
wont dwell too much on them...
tapi...
takkan sey diorng mcm gini??
for my own good?
god...i SO need a job...
i just wanna get out of the house...
pergi m'sia pon tak...
hancur siak...
ckp until like jadik GILER sey...
last min...
tak pegi argh
kang aku smack~
terperlanting sak..
cheebye...
just coz guys got a dick does that mean we FEMALES hafta do the housework?
clean the dishes?
tralalalala...
be neat...
lalala...
stewpid larhh...
u see eh...
girls gotta look nice
we MUST look nice...
so we preen n preen n preen
in front of the mirror..
dont like chuck...
process goes on...
no matter if we got many many MANY clothes...
still like too little...
thus, GUYS should be neater...
unless they're metrosexual...
meaning, fasionable widout being gay...
think abt it lorh
i think so...
wadever larh...


i wish the world
would give me a break
would zoom by and let me be
no who? no what? no where? nor when?
just let me fly
just let me be

yet i know
i know i must
take a deep breath
screw my head on right
think straight
be sensible

i know the world DOESN'T
revolve around me
the world we know is battered & bruised
this to me might be so unfair
yet to some
light years away form what they have to endure

so i'll swallow the vile
the bitter stew
chin up smile on
the anger set free
the world is cruel as it already is
so i'll smile for u to numb the pain