fuck it

i cant believe
that i try
to be kind
to you
loneliness makes you
do funny things huh?
you fat pig
rot in hell
i bought you
what you wanted
$50
i could use that money
to buy my own shit!!
fuck you
you asshole
whats up with you
you as what you are
i wasted my fucking time with you
selfish
why
do i buy a comp
and let you
of all people
use it?
its mine anyway
i cant belive
that i have to
live with you
why are you so
stingy?
and
selfish?
and you are related to me
why cant you care more
why cant you spent time with me
im lonely
im pathetic
im nothing
or even less than that
why didnt you say anything
when i gave you that
its what you wanted
wasnt it?
you know what
i use you anyway
for a friend
that i dont have
at home
to get you
to do something
is practically useless
you shithead

all you people
who are crying
over your lost love
just shut up okay??
you guys
were fortunate enough
to feel how it is to
really care about someone
im 16
and still a hopeless
loser
i didnt care
for those who liked me
i didnt even try
cause
i never cared
in the first place
im sorry
to those whom
ive given up on
since the first moment
we tried

i think im finally scared now
you think im weak
i think you're wrong
-words from matchbox 20
pretty much how i feel right now