:: SwEaTiN ::
omigosh...sweet...the exams are over...and i got sick in the midst of it...most people are putting in a lot of effort...gosh...i bet my results are gonna suck...bigtime...espescially today's paper...so difficult...heh...i really wish that i wasnt sick...such a dissappointment...some of the papers,if i really studied,would have been really easy.well,ive got to get over this.have the mother tongue 'o' levels to think about...then the mocks,the prelims,and the all dreaded 'O' Levels...ill start to panic only when i fall sick during the last two major papers...big hugs for joan and alicia for your concern...joan alwaes went home with me and even though i didnt really talk in the mrt due to my sore throat and the silence was sometimes so uncomfortable,she held on...yay joan...as for alicia she alwaes turned around and asked me how i was and even helped me put my bag outside for me...so sweet...yay alicia...by the way nisa,thanks for the get well message...to my groupie,you all were well,very concerned about your studies and the next paper...sometimes it felt like you didnt care...just gave me that kind of im-so-sorry look...actually,you guys were pretty _s_ _ _ss...well,i wont comment much...sorry if you people happen to read this...but its what i think...or by the time you people read this,its what i thought at the moment...so dont mind me okay?
enough of that...i felt so disgusting all this week...i never know how to blow my nose in a ladylike manner...all i know is you have to blow in the tissue to relief yourself to get that moment of peace...i really dont give a hoot when im sick...all i want is to feel a little better.but i cant help feeling a little disgusted at myself...i mean with my noisy nose blowing and all that tissue...eeeewwww.....yuck city...and after the fever subsided i still have a runny nose and a very bad cough...so if any of you heard a person coughing or honking very loudly at the back of the hall,that would be me...*stands up proudly and grins*...bwahahaha...im such a dork...heh...
hmm...talking about unladylike behaviour,im not very ladylike on the whole.ive tried to be ladylike or rather more feminine but it just ends up being bull.all my friends are more feminine than me...heres a low-down...
shu:last time in cargos and tees...now wear bell-bottoms...knows a lot bout makeup...more dressy...
shikin:go out hari raya wear makeup...more dressy...
al:was alwaes more of a girl...
nisa:go out wid boi must look nice...wanna pretty up...change in style...
feez:was alwaes more of a girl...
nad:change of style...more girly(muz be due to farah)...like to take pictures and say that she has a nice sweet smile...
so how can i be more ladylike huh?ive tried that once and my mom disapproved of it...so i permanently changed myself into a sloppy-joe of a teenager...rough around the edges...and so unrefined...few days ago my mom tried to get me to wear foundation...i mean sheesh...wanna change me to a girl argh?too late...i love living sloppy...no matter how badly i wanted it and to say why not,when i think about it now its not such a good idea.why?well,id use it when i go out and then the shade wouldnt match,making my face whiter than my neck...im not that fair you know...so i would wash it off...this would waste time,thus i would be late for whatever im going for...then after that horrendous experience i would never touch that thing again and it would rot in a dusty little corner of my room...and makeup doesnt last long...two years at least than you would have to throw it out cause its not hygenic...so,its hopeless...sometimes i feel a little ashamed at myself for wearing such sloppy outfits espescially when i go to town...i see all these girls,be it fat or emaciated,ugly or pretty,and they are all wearing tank tops and fitting jeans with those slippers that are not actually slippers.all so nice and pretty.girly.how can i compare them to me?or rather,how can i beat that?i feel so out of place in town.but i like it there.so much to do,see,shop and eat.when will i morph into those kind of people?if i try to pull it off i probably looks like crap...and i will think that i doesnt suit me...and then i would slip into my slops again...im not saying that i wanna break out and wear really tight jeans and a cleavage showing top...just something more girly...instead of my baggy twenty-niners and a medium or small tee...what to do?what to do?
SoMeThiNg tO ShArE...
fRiEnDs MaY NoT bE aBLe To PuLL YoU Up
BuT
tHeY WiLL StiLL tHiNk Of WaYs NoT tO LeT YoU FaLL...
"SeAcReSt...OuT!"
enough of that...i felt so disgusting all this week...i never know how to blow my nose in a ladylike manner...all i know is you have to blow in the tissue to relief yourself to get that moment of peace...i really dont give a hoot when im sick...all i want is to feel a little better.but i cant help feeling a little disgusted at myself...i mean with my noisy nose blowing and all that tissue...eeeewwww.....yuck city...and after the fever subsided i still have a runny nose and a very bad cough...so if any of you heard a person coughing or honking very loudly at the back of the hall,that would be me...*stands up proudly and grins*...bwahahaha...im such a dork...heh...
hmm...talking about unladylike behaviour,im not very ladylike on the whole.ive tried to be ladylike or rather more feminine but it just ends up being bull.all my friends are more feminine than me...heres a low-down...
shu:last time in cargos and tees...now wear bell-bottoms...knows a lot bout makeup...more dressy...
shikin:go out hari raya wear makeup...more dressy...
al:was alwaes more of a girl...
nisa:go out wid boi must look nice...wanna pretty up...change in style...
feez:was alwaes more of a girl...
nad:change of style...more girly(muz be due to farah)...like to take pictures and say that she has a nice sweet smile...
so how can i be more ladylike huh?ive tried that once and my mom disapproved of it...so i permanently changed myself into a sloppy-joe of a teenager...rough around the edges...and so unrefined...few days ago my mom tried to get me to wear foundation...i mean sheesh...wanna change me to a girl argh?too late...i love living sloppy...no matter how badly i wanted it and to say why not,when i think about it now its not such a good idea.why?well,id use it when i go out and then the shade wouldnt match,making my face whiter than my neck...im not that fair you know...so i would wash it off...this would waste time,thus i would be late for whatever im going for...then after that horrendous experience i would never touch that thing again and it would rot in a dusty little corner of my room...and makeup doesnt last long...two years at least than you would have to throw it out cause its not hygenic...so,its hopeless...sometimes i feel a little ashamed at myself for wearing such sloppy outfits espescially when i go to town...i see all these girls,be it fat or emaciated,ugly or pretty,and they are all wearing tank tops and fitting jeans with those slippers that are not actually slippers.all so nice and pretty.girly.how can i compare them to me?or rather,how can i beat that?i feel so out of place in town.but i like it there.so much to do,see,shop and eat.when will i morph into those kind of people?if i try to pull it off i probably looks like crap...and i will think that i doesnt suit me...and then i would slip into my slops again...im not saying that i wanna break out and wear really tight jeans and a cleavage showing top...just something more girly...instead of my baggy twenty-niners and a medium or small tee...what to do?what to do?
SoMeThiNg tO ShArE...
fRiEnDs MaY NoT bE aBLe To PuLL YoU Up
BuT
tHeY WiLL StiLL tHiNk Of WaYs NoT tO LeT YoU FaLL...
"SeAcReSt...OuT!"
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