:: oh man... :: dilemma... ::

i now officially feel really guilty for telling liza...
it feels like i've betrayed and tarnished the you know who...
i cannot face her now...
i will remember this day forever...
as the day i cannot keep my mouth shut...
i am so disgusted...
and so ashamed...
why did you have to pressure me...?
and why did i have to answer...?
(im not blaming this on you)
i feel sick to my stomach...
why did i think that telling her was such a bright idea..?
why couldn't i keep my mouth shut...?
i've not met her for the longest time...
and i spill the beans on my you know who to her...
bimbo...
yeah, sure i trusted her back then...
but that was way back...
and people change...
and i dunno how she is now...
would she tell her friends...?
would she even tell...?
i dunno...
i feel so...
like the pond scum...